Love’s Lagoon

Into the sea of grief when I will sink,
When unhappiness will fill me to the brink,
When from the glass of loneliness I’ll drink,
I hope you will be there with me.
There have been times when I was lonely,
But none like this came ever before,
When I wished from the bottom of heart,
Only if someone would open her door.
Let me sit for a while and have a drink,
And into the world of dreams let me sink,
Then when I would wake up I would leave,
Thank her once and later bereave.
These times soon passed, and I got you,
You came in my life when in it were left a few,
And with you by my side I have touched the cloud,
And even in silences I have shouted loud.
The wave of happiness then crossed over me,
I knew the next one wouldn’t come so soon,
And while I waited for it to come,
I spent my nights staring at the moon.
That moon still shines at me every night,
Telling me that you’ll be back soon,
And when you come you’ll clasp my hand,
Stay along with me in my love’s lagoon.

She Sells Seashells on the Seashore

I sit by the sea as it changes like the sky,
From yellow to orange to red and then black,
I see homeward the birds all fly,
Brown mynahs, sparrows, and crows black.
People come, sit, smile and talk,
Then get up and return to where they came from,
I don’t get up, this place is my home,
I don’t know where I came from.
Since years I have been all alone here,
And I haven’t intended to find someone,
But of late I have noticed this lady on the beach,
Who says to me she needs someone.
She sells seashells on the seashore,
Which one out of a hundred people buy,
And the two rupees she earns daily,
At the end of the day she looks at it and does cry.
I tell her of days when I was strong,
When I too had friends and my share of joy,
I tell her of the day when I was small,
And I had been bought my first toy.
And then when she asks how I ended up here,
A series of memories, a tear in the eye,
And I suddenly am dumbfounded,
I keep quiet though inside I do cry.
She says we’ll marry and have children one day,
I smile at her and she smiles back,
Because she knows it well and I do it too,
Today or tomorrow my bones will all crack.

Holidays Over

Hello readers! How’s everything? It has been long since I have posted something that actually made sense, and I have explanations to vindicate that, though I’ll keep it aside for now. I want to take this opportunity to first express my gratitude all my readers all over the world; over months this blog has earned your fondness, and that is all what I write for, to develop a fondness towards reading and writing. The visits have increased tremendously; for me even two thousand is tremendous because when I had started to write I did not expect this rate of turnover. Thank you all for that. There’s a popular saying in Sanskrit, “Atithi Devo Bhavaha”, which means that Guest should be treated just as you would treat God, and I have always tried my best to keep up to it. I hope I have succeeded, if only a bit.

I returned to college today, after a long vacation of over two months. And since I have no work at the moment, I might as well tell you what all I did this summer. I know no one would be interested in the unraveling of a twenty-year old collegiate, but still, how does that matter? I want to write. 😀 So let me start. I completed watching all the episodes of Tintin which I had, and Small Wonder too. I collected seventy-eight episodes of Sarabhai vs Sarabhai, and finished them. I watched Hindi movies, so many of them, some old, some new, some for the first time, some the second time. Among first times were Jab We Met, Jaane Tu Ya Jaane Na, Oye Lucky Lucky Oye, Guzaarish, Kites, Delhi Belly, Shaitan, Zindagi Na Milegi Dobara, Ready, Ajnabee and others. Among second and nth times were Race, Dilwale Dulhaniya Le Jayenge, and some more, can’t recall right now. I watched an English movie Dinocroc vs Supergator, which was fun. I watched all the episodes of Roadies 8. Roadies 8 ended pathetically, I must say. I didn’t miss a second of Coke Studio @ MTV, and neither did I miss a minute of Stuntmania Underground. I watched WWE one day, and it reminded me of days in high school when I did the same.

At other times I read. I finished “The Namesake”, and read a part of “The Guide”, which bored me. “The Namesake”, by Jhumpa Lahiri, is quite a decent book. Gogol, the protagonist, is named after his father’s favorite author, Nikolai Gogol. But growing up in an Indian family in suburban America, the boy starts to hate the awkward name and itches to cast it off, along with the inherited values it represents. Determined to live a life far removed from that of his parents, Gogol sets off on hi own path only to discover that the search for identity depends on much more than a name. You must read the story if you can. I finished writing a beginner’s tutorial to Java, a programming language, which I will be putting up soon on this blog. I tried to wet my hands on C++, another language, which I don’t know much about. I bought new clothes, misplaced my watch,  I visited my friends and relatives, had fun, ate at various places, drove on random roads, and visited the doctor. And most importantly, I slept. A lot.

Yet, as always, you cannot have one side of a coin. You need to have both. You cannot deny. My local SIM card stopped working, and I could not contact any of my friends for a long time. My broadband gave errors, due to which I could not access the internet for almost a fortnight, after which I bought myself a USB modem which allowed me to use the internet at terribly low speeds. Grief struck the whole family as my uncle expired after four massive heart attacks in six days. There were other things to be sad about, but they all looked minute and insignificant in the darkness of this.

I would like to keep this short, so well, that’s all for now. Will be putting up new poems, stories, and experiences soon. See you soon. Good bye for now. Stay safe, stay happy.